Well, I decided today. I'm officially sick of being used, abused, and then abandoned. It seems to me that no matter what I do, whom I try to help, they always end up ignoring me. Ditching me. Leaving me for dead on the side of the road. I realized that I know more about what's going on in the lives of my worst enemies, than I know about what's going on in the lives of my best friends. Well screw it. I hate to say that I want to be a hermit, but I mean, let's get real. How many of these people am I going to know out of highschool? If everything goes according to plan, once I graduate, I'm going to meet my birth mother, and then I'm coming back, packing up, and moving on. I don't plan on sticking around here any longer than I'm forced to. So what does it matter? Why should I keep giving myself to people, only to hear "SHAFTED!" resonating in my ears? *sighs* I don't know...

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Father of mine
This is your daughter
The one you didn't love
But the one you let the world slaughter

Father of mine
Can you fully comprehend
What the effect of no contact did
All the letters you "couldn't send"

Father of mine
Why did you leave
Because I wasn't cute enough
Or because you didn't conceive

Father of mine
Where did you go
You left me with a monster
But I guess you didn't know

Father of mine
Where are you now
Surrounded by your family
In your brand new little town

Father of mine
My heart will always ache
Because of what you did to me
And because of the promises you break

Father of mine
How can you not miss
The golden days when I would still
Call you daddy and give you a kiss

Father of mine
I hope that you know
My love for you will never die
But my hate will always grow...