Yeah, so guess who just got back from being on her feet for over twelve hours straight, making over 180 pints of plum jam? Yup, you're looking at the idiot. *sighs* Yes well... I thought about the whole Ari-Hoodie thing, and I figured out why I was so mad. It wasn't the fact that she "couldn't" keep the hoodie. It wasn't the fact that she didn't wear it to the concert. And if it had been her parents that said that, I wouldn't be mad at her, because parents are weird like that.

Nay, it is none of the above. It's the fact that she lied to me about it. I was so... FURIOUS that she could even think me to be that stupid. Like I couldn't put two and two together... The fact that she lied to me, is what hurts the most. The fact that I trusted her with everything, no matter what it was, I suppose, back lashed. I should be used to this by now... If she had just said "Alisa, I don't like the hoodie." Or "Alisa, you buying me this hoodie makes me uncomfortable." Or "Alisa, I don't think I like the idea of you buying me expensive things." I could handle it. She would have been honest, straight foward, but above all... truthful about the damn thing, I would have understood. I would have been a bit miffed, and little tiny bit hurt, but I would have gone home, thought about it, and been done with it. What would it matter anyways? I would have taken it back, and been ok about it.

No... she lied to me. She insulted my integrity, and worst of all... my intelligence. How dare she, is all I have to say. Yes, I am still angry with her, and I think I just very well might be angry for a very long time. No matter what though... I do know that things will never be the same. I will never again be able to trust what she is saying to me. A saying my mom has always said... "I will bend over backwards for you, but the moment you lie to me, your ass is grass."

Ari, if you ever end up reading this, (Which I doubt, seeing as how you have better things to do), I just want you to know something. No, I don't hate you. I am hurt, I'm dissapointed, and I'm angry, but I do not hate you. I wish things had turned out differently. I wish you had been a little bit more honest with me. I wish you trusted me, like I trusted you.

...While I'm at this wishing thing, I'd also like to own Microsoft...

*sighs sadly*

~Alisa