When There's So Much Light, Why Do I Feel So Dark?

Freeze my bones, feel them break with freon urges and crack against the effort of movement and I am just a skeleton of humanity so here let me move that for you because I am the anti-venom of your sincerity. HA. Anxiety and lyrics are my favorite liquor so pour it for me deep baby girl cause I can see the color of your eyes and it's such a turn on I can't control the emotions of my vitality. Raise me up and make me smile tear it across my face and across my flesh your body stretches in my mind and who am I to try and trouble you with my questions of friendship and faith but what we once had was beautiful. The color of your skin makes me weak in the knees. I'm painting a mural of our relationship across the ceiling of my ribcage in the color of blood and when my mind explodes the splatters across the walls of my skull are in the shapes of pinup girls and am I such a sinner or am I just more honest than the rest of the world more honest with myself because I can admit that I'm a sexual human being and I have lust and love and more of a human than you'll ever comprehend across your celestial tapestry your universe is painted with the stars I gave you the stars I forged out of fire you are stronger and the life force flows in beautiful swirls around you in ways that you'll never comprehend with smoky grays and wishful whites. Good vibrations and whether you read this or not I'm gone and healed and when you get the chance to look me up you ought to but I'm not going to wait around for something that nearly destroyed me because my body's back and my life is back and my groove is back that beat that pumps beneath the sidewalk that always made me smile in that half sort of quirky way that made you fall in love with me and my charisma and my honor but I will never subjugate myself to you again I will never let you change me again because I threw myself at you to shape me and no wonder you fell out of love with me I formed myself to you as much as possible and fuck that I'm a better human being when I'm not trying to be someone else and Kele you are my Beatrice I will always love you.

You have to kill yourself in order to find yourself among the ashes.

Pheonix from the fire and hello world I'm here to make a difference.

Grow up.