When There's So Much Light, Why Do I Feel So Dark?

Hey ther everyone! Just trying to update. Not much going on, besides the new mark I have on my left arm. Sometimes I don't even understand what goes on in my head when I do stuff. Anyways, my contacts are bothering me again for some stupid reason.

School went ok today. I don't know HOW I'm going to make up Anderson's major packet. I swear that man is the next Hitler... AND IF I HEAR YOU GUYS CALL ME THE FLAG NAZI I'LL HURT YOU! Yeah, I had marching band practice again this morning. I think Taylor is learning to back off of me more, 'cause she's started to stop asking me how I am, or if I'm alright... I swear, you'd think she'd get the hint after I nearly cussed at her! I love Taylor to death, but I'm kinda getting sick of trying to hide my limp or my scars from her. It's getting kinda frustrating. The more I try to hide my limp, the more everyone asks me if I'm ok. I really want to be in color gaurd and march. I don't know what I'd do if Taylor thought that it would be best if I didn't. Just because my hip pops in and out of place, and just because I can't walk sometimes, and just becuase I keep having a ton of dizzy spells, and just because it keeps getting harder to catch my breath... You'd think I was dying or something.

My moms health keeps falling. I think she's going to have another heart attack again, besides the one she had last week. I hope not, because they say that the first real one that hits her will kill her, her blood pressure's that high. I don't know anymore... anyways, by everybody! Gotta get ready for kickboxing and such!