I'm screaming I'm swearing
I'm yelling I'm tearing up inside
The darkness is creeping
And somewhere you are sleeping by her side

You left me so lonely
Leaving me to say if only I had tried
To be that bit tougher
Maybe now you would not love her while I cry--I cry!

So stay with me
Just for this single night
Oh stay with me
So I can see the light

I drive home the long way
Just to see you everyday on your way home
Whenever your band plays
I make sure that I've got tickets to the show

Because I miss you

So stay with me
just for this single night
Oh stay with me
So I can feel the light

I should have never ever let you go
If only I knew then what I now know
Maybe there's a way for me to show
I love you!

So stay with me
Just for this single night
Oh stay with me
So I can know your light...

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So I'm in Oregon right now. My step mom was nice and let me get on the internet for a while. No MSN though, just mindsay, and maybe Deviant Art. She's always been real good to me, trying to make me feel like I'm part of the family when she can. ^^ So my step sister Jenny is pregnant. She gonna have a BABEH! Woohoo for the next generation of babehs!

*sighs* You can tell I'm trying to be happy about the whole situation, but I still feel.... I dunno, rejected? I mean, dad completely remodeled the whole house, so the only bit of familiarity I had with the house is now gone. It's like... I dunno, like the very HOUSE is rejecting me and telling me I don't belong here. I can't get ahold of my friends out here... I wanna go over to Lori's, crawl into her lap and cry. Not that I would cry, but I want to. They hadn't thought ahead far enough to figure out where I was gonna sleep, so yay for me, I get a nice little patch of floor. I was listening to my music a few hours ago, and I freakin' fell asleep for hours. I really wish I hadn't, because now I'm all groggy and feel like I have morning breath. *yawns* It makes me sad that my place out here is rapidly closing up. No returning, eh? It makes me sad. But I guess that's what happens when you grow up and move on. I get the feeling this is going to be a very long two weeks... at least Renee is being nice to me. She's being really sweet and trying to keep me included. Breanna is more leaning towards the side of just letting me sleep on the floor and leaving me to be ignored. When she's not teasing me that is. She's cool though, I understand why she's acting this way. We didn't exactly have a great time last time I was here. I mean, heck, it was my fault that she ended up putting locks on her doors. She's a good woman, just... I really screwed up big time.

I just wanted to know what it felt like to have a family...

~Alisa

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