When There's So Much Light, Why Do I Feel So Dark?

God I feel like crap right now.

My bishop is getting angry at me for not going to church. No, he's not being supportive of me, or anything like that, he's just mad. Like that's going to make me want to go anymore...

I just don't care anymore. I'm so... tired. I'm so very very tired...

I'm sick of fighting, sick of struggling. Sam's right, none of this matters. These aren't the best years of our lives. The best years have come and gone, they happened already, back when we were kids and had no responsibility. If we've already hit our prime, why keep going?

Augh, I'm sorry. I'll just... stop. I'm just in a lot of pain right now in a lot of different ways.

I'm going to go crawl back into bed.

~Alisa