A few words that a child from a failed marriage never wants to hear in her entire lifetime:

"You know, if I hadn't been such an ass, your mother and I would still be together."

"If I had been better aware of our relationship, I would still be married to your father."

"If I had had this knowledge earlier, I would have never married Cherie."

...I've been living without a father; only my mother and I fighting to survive in this world for men, all because these two IDJITS couldn't work it out. 14 years later, they're apologizing to each other for how it didn't work out. Do I get an apology for all the heartache of father's days without a father to sit next to during church? Do I get an I'm sorry for all the years of me hating males because I've never known one I can look to for comfort, including my own father? Do I get a remorse filled statement telling me they're sorry for all the pain and scars they have caused me?! Of course not, they're adults, they don't apologize to children. So instead, I'm here crying like a pathetic child, pitying myself. Curse them and they're stupidity, but more importantly, curse my inability to be strong in this area.

No matter what knowledge I hold now though, I tell you, the show must go on. Inside my heart is breaking, but my smile will still stay on. No use weeping for the past, and though I ache for it with my whole body, a chance at what could of been, what should have been, I have to find the will to carry on...